I'm frustrated that till now ive not achieved much.
I really want to buy that house :(

1:48 AM

I am truely happy :)

1:53 AM

As I look back at the major events that happened in my life,
I can't help but feel an immense relief and happiness that I am where I am now, and I have what/who I have now.
Everything happened for a reason they say.
And that might just be true.
The chain effect every event had, and the absence of any would not have me at where I am now.
There might be regrets or resentments in the past events.
But it was that that made me grow up.
And made me learn a hell lot.
And I'm glad there's a happy ending to all that I've went through.
Everything happened for a reason :)

1:29 AM

I've been blogging in my private blog more often than here.
Not a good sign.

Career has been ok so far this year.
At least till now.
But seeing my bitches and colleagues leaving for Athens affected me a hell lot.
I could only look forward and work towards Athens.

Rumors about what the double zees said about me affected me a great deal.
More than it should be.
I thought they were ridiculous initially.
Then, it created lotsa self doubts.
More so after the incident tonight.

Many of us are stuck in our comfort (danger) zone.
Be it in terms of career, or maintaining the relationships with your friends or family or partners.
Nothing much to elaborate on for career.
We've heard so much about stepping outta said zone and overcoming new challenges yada yada.
But human relationships, it's tacky eh?
No doubt we love to hang around people we can feel at ease with, and we can be ourselves in front of.
And the more we love them, the more we needa put in the effort to maintain these relationships.
Then, comes the irony.
To us selfish beings, being comfy and putting in effort don't quite come together.
I hope I'm making sense.

For matters of the heart, I became aware that I'm allowing myself to be in a vulnerable position again.
I needa pull out and protect myself before it's too late.

I am so incoherent.

Good night, world!

1:42 AM

in office on a saturday cuz baby's in msia.
just finished an appt and waiting for the next.
feels good to be working =)

realised i havent been blogging for ages and thats bad.
i'd have looked back in the future, and forgot most of the things that happened.
so to summarise all...
2010 SUCKED!

the main pillars of my life - career, love, family all failed me.
and the whole year was spent struggling to cope with all.
i guess there was nth much i could have done about my family issues..
could have been more focus and worked harder for my career.
but its tough i must say when i lost my directions in life.
lotsa regrets about how badly i allowed myself to fall when love failed.
kenyliao came into my life and that seemed to be the turning point of the year.

2011 should be a better year..
things seemed to look fine so far.
may this be a great year for me and all tigers! =)

2:31 PM

universal studios and ikea shopping on the 16th
outing at barrage, farmway and clarke quay with colleagues on the 17th.

i love my 24th birthday becuz i have you =)

8:09 PM

i'm moving house!
though its ultra troublesome..with all the sourcing for units and tenants..
i love my new house! =)
hopefully it'll help mom's conditions.....

8:02 PM

sent back to the hospital.
3rd time this year.
wonder how many more times do we have to go through this..
i feel drained.
so helpless.

10:22 PM

i dislike being hated by my mom.
i dislike having to worry about my mom 24/7 even at work.

4:04 PM

i'm stuck at home and bored like helllllll!!!!

9:48 PM

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