lantern festival....

got back most of my papers by now..c5 for gp..B for math..AO for chem..phy not sure yet..haha..not v good results..but nvm la..as ive said..i din expect much..hehe..shall pia for A's!!!

lantern festival!! was thinking how lanterns come about..i mean e legend or wat..haha..nvm..went pasir ris park after studying in sch..played sparklers! n i was hopping ard e place..hahaha..den we tried scraping out e gun powder from e sparklers den make a heart shape..attempted twice..haha..din light up e whole thing..but was super nice!!! den he go play w e fire stuff..so scared he'll hurt himself man..tsk tsk tsk...went to e beach..realised hi tide at nite quite scary..lk some horror movie lk dat..haha..made wishes while throwing e sparklers into e sea...really really really hope it'll come true...really........................

kept getting reminded of him gonna leave..sad..guess i did show it..no wonder he asked..n my frenz..aj vic xing wei..thanx..i'm ok..smilex.....

2:17 PM

pms..

its really not my week..think i pms..so angry w myself n i hate how i'm feeling rite now..kicking a great fuss out of nth..pissing off everyone ard me..dunno y m i such an idiot..

went shopping today..enjoyed myself thou legs v tired n bought nth..haha..v long since we 2 went shopping..haha..had fun toking n luffing along e way..snickers ice cream is great!!! n snapple oso!! go 7-11 buy..cfm got sell..haha..

went raffles place..den suntec..den bugis..haha..looking at shoes to go w my prom nite dress..haha..so stupid! tried a dress n it look soooooooooooooooo horrible on me..my goodness..throw my face man..i'm so fat!

tmr gotta go back sch le..haix..boring..but gotta start mugging for A's now..had my one week of slacking n now its time to work..yawnx..e thot of studying makes me wanna puke..haha..nvm..it'll b over in a few mth time............

12:07 PM

went w cls to buy prom nite dress..bought mine!! but think i look fat in it..shall start to diet..heex..den think abit casual..might regret buyign it if i see sth nicer next time..haha..so shall avoid stepping into those kinda shops..haha..

was v v v v angry w 2 of my class guys..nv been so angry w anyone in e cls b4..but nvm..its over le..but i was really angry..many ppl luv to look at sth n come to their own conclusions..shd i say esp guys? dey think their conclusions r always rite..but how often do dey realise dat dey are not dat great? c'mon..stop being so arrogant..

argued w him..cuz of my jealousy again..talked to kj abt it..we realised sth great..guys always get fed up n think gers don trust dem when e gers get jealous..but rarely sit down n think fr e gers' pt of view..abt y isit dat e gers get jealous..abt wat exactly have dey done to make themselves so un-trust-able..its always..'my ger don trust me..' ..has it become more of an excuse den a reason for guys? n if u don understand? how often do u really ask e gers abt it?

as for gers..well..perhaps we're really too sensitive..n now dat we realised guys are such unthinking creatures..e only way out is perhaps for us to let go..to give guys more space..n not tie e guys up w our jealousy..sad life for us gers eh?

well..relationships are not easy to maintain..n yet among us..many couldnt get e luv dey longed for..so ppl out dere hu are in luv..do treasure ur relationships n ur luv..how difficult it may b to maintain it..fate has brought e 2 of u together..of all e others..it juz has to be him/her..treasure her...

thot of e day: we'll nv understand someone else perfectly....

1:44 PM

sentosa

went sentosa today!! not v fun la..ok ok only..only few ppl in e cls turned up..haha..stupidly..i brought extra clothings w/o bringing extra undergarments..den some stupid frenz threw me into e water..had a bad experience last time..now v v scared of water..n dey actually wanna threw me in..grrr........

anw..after dat went lau pa sat..nobody wanna eat..so we juz ordered satay..haha..he came to join us..glad dat he came..heex..

oh..wore cap today..borrowed frm him..nike de..think v nice..haha..

tmr last paper le..phy pract 5!!

2:03 PM

e thot of him leaving me one day really upsets me............

12:49 PM

dunno y m i so sad to hear dat he's trying for US uni...shdnt i b happy? to hear dat he's aiming high..to further persue his studies..where e degree dere is far more recognised..where after he grad..he's gonna get a betta job..bright future eh? but..i really don feel good..i shd b supporting him..i noe i shd stand by him..n support him in wateva he do..but..its gonna b for yrs..after his ns its another 4 to 5 yrs of waiting..can i take it? i'm too lousy to take up any scholarships..to go somewhere lk US to study..is dis relationship gonna b for a lifetime? is he serious abt us? or m i thinking too much? does he realise i'll support him but at e same time feel lonely? is e waiting gonna b worthwhile? or will e luv juz fade away? mayb i can try to meet more often try n build up e relationship..in case it breaks down when i have to be all alone...without him............
i hate separations..esp w him..y muz i b so dependent on him..y i need him so much..i really hate myself........

1:17 AM

yawnx...

hihi~! haha..went to watch dodgeball w e cls today..our ct came w us..haha..e show damn funny man..but shd have age limit man..nc16 perhaps..haha..good show to have a good luff..shd watch..haha..e main actress is sexy.....*wink*..

inside e show got one part e guy decided on sth..some1 told him not to regret his decision in e future..actually alot of times we made decisions rashly..n so often we regret it..juz feel dat..wateva decisions we make..juz make sure we will not n shall not regret..for luv matters..follow ur heart..n go all out for wat u really wan..nv regret...

today chem paper 1 was another disaster..so stressful lor!! super no time..den anyhow tikam..haha..cfm fail one..

math tutor told us our paper 1 no1 fail..relief..she say i either B or C..hope she rmb correctly..den mayb can pull my paper 2 marks..haha..shall work v v v hard for A's......

2 more papers left..phy pract n phy paper 5..shall slack for dis week n start mugging next week..haix..stupid jc life..v long nv really sit down n enjoy tv shows le..sianz..

mayb sat gonna shop for prom nite gown..hope to get some nice ones..no money sia..saving money..for his bday present..n my com..hehe..shun bian diet..hahahaha..

juz now go walk walk w him..den saw those kids lantern..den took up n see..den e shopkeeper auntie look at me n smile..bloody hell..so throw face..haha..but hope can go play lantern..sounds fun..haha..

tmr hols for me..hope is another great day w him..muackx~!

8:36 PM

e beach..

went parkway..saw peck hiang..my sec sch classmate..she doing part time job now..haha..look diff le..miss my sec sch so much..esp my clique..some werent as close anymore..really v sad..

den went to east coast beach w him..went cycling..i cant cycle..so we took e 2 ppl one..haha..was fun!! he took e front seat..n we took turns to peddle..v v fun when we go down e slopes..he peddled n i enjoy e breeze..so sweet of him..heex..

den took a rest by e sea..played w stones..he can make stones jump on e water surface! if u understand wat i mean la..haha..wrote sth on e sand..v v big..shant tell u wat isit..heex..forgot to take a pic of it..sad..forgot to bring my sparklers too..haix..blur me..

returned e bike n went to buy sth to eat..dere's dis bun dip in chilli crab sauce..great!!! was v v v nice..ppl next time muz go try..near e mac dere one..haha..den we tried wang wang guo dong..e hui sheng qi one..haha..lemon tea flavour..nice eh~! din expect it to b so nice thou..haha..

realised we cel one more mth anni den is our 1 yr anni le..but gonna b during our A's..v v v v sad..sobx..nvm..dere are more anniversaries to come..hope to spend my whole lifetime w him..oh ya..kash says she can c luv in his eyes..n more den last time..hmm............. ;p

wishes of e day: 1. may all couples treasure each other n may dere b eternity between dem..
2. to lyn..happy burfday! may ur wishes come true..
3. u guys to find ur true luv soon..
4. A's to end soon..
5. to have him by my side..foreva..
m i asking too much? heex...

2:02 PM

sianz

feeling confused now..always feel dat i keep wanting to meet him..n he's always not wanting to..dunno how true..hope its juz myself being over-sensitive..but for many instances its been lk dat..hate myself for being so dependent on him..for needing him so much..guess i need to give him more space..i'm determined to change.............................................

3:17 PM

mAtH pApEr sUx

9:37 AM

sLacKeR at wOrk

haha..spent my day trying to make my blog nice nice..e music e alignment etc etc..edit e templates until i cross-eyed..haha..so happy dat dis blog is finally set up..*grnz*

tmr math paper..still haven study much..dats bad..used to have high expectations for my math..but my results dropped alot..really sad..hope wun disappoint me dis time round..pls...

he came over today..spent most of his time helping me too..in e end din study much..sorry dear..but..thanx!!! heex~! oh..n he accidentally saw wat jia told me over msn..supposed to b secret thou..i'm so sorry..i'll make sure he wun say..

promised jia to go out together after exams..really looking forward to it..its been a v v long time since we 2 go out together n shop..guess will b real fun..haha ^.^

eating packed food now..gotta go back to work soon..hope nth goes wrong for tmr's paper...............

11:38 AM

cHapTeR 1...

my first entry..haha..supposed to be studying math now..sat got math prelim paper..not expecting much for prelims..din put in enuff efforts..so ya..anw..i'm slacking now..haha..

argued w him today..sad..cried..but tok things out..n realised it was my fault..i'm sorry dear..i'll learn..

was taking bus..overheard a guy arguing over e fone..den he shouted 'i hate ppl to shout at me in e middle of e nite! ' den i c my watch..its 8:30pm..middle of e nite?? haha..funny guy..

angry w dad..treating me lk a small kid..I'M NOT!! ok wateva..
funny eh? i pissed him off n den my dad pissed me off..isit a cycle? haha..den some1 will piss him off ltr..haha..
prelims gonna end in a weeks time..shall hang in dere..jia you every1~! *grinx*


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2:44 PM

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