hmm...quite guilty..din study much today..haha..went orchard dere w dear to apply SAT II..its weird..to b going w him to do sth which i wldnt wan him to do...i tell u wat kinda feeling sux most..when u cant..or rather its not right..to stop some1 from doing wat u dowan him to do..anw..he applied..

a fren once told me all his frens' relationships din made it after one party went overseas to study..suddenly thot of sth..lk..if he's going away for years 3 years ltr..n v likely we'll neglect each other..its lk e realationship is only gonna last for 3 years..i was lk..omg..might as well end it now..b4 i get really reliant on him n cant bear to let it go..n i got really really upset when i thot of dat..well..its juz a thot.....a silly thot.......

was feeling down all e way..den e silly boy go mac n buy hello kitty gimme..really think i'm a small ger man..haha..but still..v sweet of him....really enjoy myself w him..

cldnt find stef's new album!! n e person told me is tmr..wth..e ad say 29th lor..hmv leh..supposed to b e reliant one wad..dotx..how nice..gggrrrrrr..

went far east..saw an old lady..really gimme a weird feeling..kinda uncomfortable or sad or..dunno how to describe..dear felt dat way too..she put v thick make-up..n she's lk..dressed up in sth lk shou yi? another lady was helping her choose ear rings..her expressions..her everything..juz gimme e feeling lk she's preparing herself for death? haix...made me quite upset....

had a good tok w dear at my hse..really glad dat we finally talked over things calmly..which seldom happen..i'll either b crying or he'll b lk a volcano..heex..but at last...we talked over stuff.. C=

1:43 PM

BOO!! scared? hehe..meow..so slpy now..but cant slp yet..cuz juz had dinner..den v full..haha..mayb do work ltr after i blog..c la mr blog..i so nice to u..tok to u first den do work..haha..yawnx!

was waiting for him again..realised we gotta set a time next time we meet..don lk to wait n wait..anw..went mac study awhile den went orchard..saw xinxian at mac!! still as pretty..haha..i supposed e guy beside her is her bf? haha..but she go off nv say byee one..sobx..wanted to exchange contacts de..haha..dear got a new shirt!! n guess wat?? its white long sleeves shirt!!! hahahaha...but not e type i always think abt la..jia shd noe? those t shirt kind..haha..hard to describe la..haha..yawnx..

he said those 3 words again today!! but nv fly oso..dowan to hit e ceiling den malu myself infront of him..haha..happy happy~~ heex.. -blush-
left my hp in his bag..n realised it after we part..toopid me..lucky i found ONE 10cent coin deep inside my wallet..phew..den he had to make a trip down..so guilty sia..thanx darling~!!

hey guess wat? i'm less slpy now le..haha..shall do math n watch da ge da..haha..yaaaaawwwwwnnnnnnnxx!!! oopx..did i say i'm less slpy?

2:10 PM

today..quite slack..juz not in e mood to really sit down n work..well as if i'll ever b in dat mood..anw..did 1 chem paper 1..studied oxides n chlorides..n 2 fluids qn..haha..

cool man..u wun believe how much i eat today..probably e most since i was born..woke up w a gastric..ate one lian rong bao..one char shao bao..den still hungry..so mum went down to buy nasi lemak for me..thanx mum! heex..yea..alot rite?? oh man...den took 2 naps today..tell u ar..i'm either still undergoing puberty or my menses is coming soon..eating so much n so easily tired..haha..

hmm..tok more den usual w mum today..mayb cuz its once in a blue moon dat i stayed at home..so unfilial..haha..shall go out w her after my A's..stupid A's.....

din meet him today..well..he really gets snappy when he's tired..wateva..at least now i noe wat to do when he gets slpy..haha..

so boring..on e fone w him for 2 hours..half e time complaining i'm bored..n e other half browsing thru blogs..came across dis blog..e ger say if she have a choice..she'll make guys have menses too..n make it blue..hahaha..cute ger eh?

boring..........tmr meeting him le..yay~

shall continue browsing blogs until i tired or some1 msn me..e guys busy playing games..n e gers are either mugging or aslp..oh ya..did i tell u mugging rockx??? >.<

4:51 PM

haha..at mac now!! haha.tamp int de..haha..going home soon..addicted to ren wo ao you le!!! felicia chin rockx..hehe..btw..mac spicy rockx most..hahahahhaahhahaa.......................
ps..dear say ou xuan rockx more..bleahx..lk real....

10:45 AM

hmm..today e guys get e letter frm ns..their enlistment dates..so many on e 8th..dear's on e 6th..sianz..don lk ns at all..i'm lk so sad cuz will b separated most of e times..but he doesnt seem to b bothered..haix..felt so unfairly treated oso..haha..nvm..

hope A's will faster come faster go..argh..got so sick of studying..

1:05 PM

lalala..slpy these few days..think i pms..haha..

ytd went eat w his family..wasnt as scary as i thot..all frenly ppl..heex..quarrelled w him at my hse..mum saw me crying n asked wat happened..dunno wat she'll think..but nvm..its over liaoz..heex..nice dinner...

went out today..supposedly to make up for e dinner we were supposed to have for our 11th month anni..planned to eat fish n co..but i think abit boring..so ended up in cafe cartel..ate SOFT SHELL CRAB! envy not?? hehehe...he eat alot of bread w margarine sia..but i cant take e taste..feel lk vomitting after eating margarine man..bah...went to look for my polo tee..den go giodarno..so common yet so ex..not lk hang ten or bossini or wat..haha..den bought a guy polo tee XS..hehe..black one..he bought white..think he really look nice in white..white shirt guys rockx!! heex..esp white long sleeves...my goodness...gasp!!..ok..shall stop..hehe.....

hmm..got so high when he says luv u..high as in happy..don anyhow think pls..but pretended to b unaffected..haha..natural reaction ba..juz cant bring myself to fly infront of him when he says dat..haha..dunno y he suddenly say dat..so not him..haha..sms oso got say..i'm flying i'm flying!!!! heex......

2:29 PM

woa today graduation ceremony le..not exactly ceremony la..juz ask us sit in LT n listen..haha..got a presentation by tchers..miss koh's segment really v touching..e she speaks..really make me cant bear to leave..dunno y..thou i hate e sch..e sch system n wateva..but e sch did give me many fond memories..e frenz dere rockx! was suddenly reminded of e many many enjoyable times we had in cls..during free times when we're addicted to bridge..when i used to rush for training after sch..when i was e vice capt tryingt to get all e things in place..many many more..life would have been so damn boring without dis bunch of frenz n e dedicated tchers..everythings dat has a beginning has an end..........

took so many fotos today..miss koh uploaded dem on e webby..i look so weird in some of e pics..den she tries to take candid fotos of me n him together..so smart of me to give her e idea to target another couple..hehe..really had fun taking fotos w e cls..dunno will keep in contact w how many of dem in e future..

den open hse..went over to help my team mates..din do much actually..so boring..den went to pull ppl over..met dis bunch of ahs ppl..found out 2 gers were frm tabletennis..den dis ger was lk so damn rude..woa kaoz..make my blood boil..din have good impression of ahs ppl since sec sch..now still v bad impression..sch of attitude students..ggrrrrrrrrr.......

3 more weeks to A's..means 6 more weeks to my 8 mth hols..woa..cant wait for e dumb A's to b over..waste my qing chun studying..haha..lalala...e guys muz b so jealous..muz go ns..hehehe...enjoy!!!

1:06 PM

woa..so long nv come blog le..busy studying..not even enuff time to on my com..haha..so tired..so stressed..din even feel so stress for my O's..now is lk all e ppl ard me are all v zai..feel so..argh..broke down dat day in sch..v nice of miss koh to tok to me..she even cried w me..wow..so guilty..haha..

last nite went to bbq..his ex's bday..was afraid dat he'll feel awkward..but he didnt! so glad..but she felt awkward i guess..n i feel weird c-ing her too..lk abit guilty..if u understand wat i mean..got to noe few of his frenz too..met william..e guy hu so super tall n w big head..heex.oopx! look lk tweety bird! haha..his gf soo pretty!! lucky him! haha..

stay back in sch to study until 9+ pm e whole week..n my dad gets v irritating..sms me everynite to ask wat time i going home n stuff..felt so restricted..might as well get a bird to b his daughter..n i bet he doesnt believe i'm studying in sch..e qn he asked..so obvious he doesnt trust me..ggrrrrr......

alot things happened dis few days when i nv blog..but cant rmb rite now..will fill u in when i recall..haha..jc life sux..no no..jc students don even have a life..hope e time pass quickly..hope all dis wld b over soon..life sux.......

happy 11th month my dear~!!!!!!! more anni to come~ *muackx*

song of e day: liang jing ru - ning xia

4:55 AM

life is so meaningless..realised how insignificant i m to u..u hurt me without realising it urself..
..tears......................

1:22 PM

life sux..jc life sux..esp when no1 understands wat u wan n how u feel..or no1 ever tries to understand..studying do matter to me..but emotional affairs matter even more..diff ppl have diff perspectives..diff aims in life..dats e root of all conflicts between man..if not..almost all..emotional affairs may not bring me far..n dats e part where life sux most..where things are juz not e way u wan..i guess if we r allowed to end our life wheneva we wan..u wldnt b seeing me ard.......

11:29 AM

haha..fun day..he came over today n do work together..ended up wasted another day..as usual..haha..den mum keep asking him to stay for dinner..keep asking n asking lo..haha..some funny things dat mothers do..den u noe wat? he got crazy n carried me den spin n spin n spin n spin..gosh!!! so scary noe!!! argh...dat pig head..ggrrrrrr........

went tm at ard 7+..intended to buy grace's present..budden couldnt decide on e bear or e foto album..so nv buy anythign..wasted trip..had shrooms meal for dinner..cheap cheap..haha..

my sore throat is back..so sianz......

1:52 PM

haha few days nv blog le..shall tell u wat happened e past few days..

watched terminal..v nice show..funny n touching..got few parts aLmOsT made me cry..but didnt..cuz e scene not long enuff to me my tear drop..haha..pretty nice show n got sexy actress again..haha..

been trying out vjc math paper during e week..not easy man! alot thinking..don think its a fair paper thou..so not v demoralised..haha..shall pia for my chem..its really horrible..i'm one of e few in e cls not within e top 100..feel so out..gotta attend some extra lessons..sianz..don lk e feeling..feel so stupid...

got upset again cuz of e matter..tok to kash abt it..n she was dere for me listening to me n giving me advices..v sweet of her..luv ya kash! well..we talked..n i realised its gonna b a horrible time for me while he's away..i'm more dependent on him den he is on me..he wun b dere for me while he's away..can u imagine it? 4 yrs..perhaps he'll meet some1 betta den me..n................

2:24 PM

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