life really sux....when i finally get to see him...all sorts of rubbish had to happen...he'd changed...diff from e guy i had fallen in luv w...army had changed our life...v much...n i'm getting afraid...afraid of e feelings fading...r/s isnt sth which we can leave untouched for 2 yrs n den after dat try n make up for it...we no longer feel e same way as when we were a new couple...time had passed...our lives had changed so much...if only we can go back to those days.........

1:06 PM

hate e world even more now...hate my boss..hate e one hu look down on me..hate my life..hate living in dis world..hate waiting..hate it to e core..hate acting strong infront of everyone..hate being left w no choice but to accept everything dat i hate so much........

10:45 PM

i'm beginning to hate e world...simply hate waiting...its killing me...

time only go forward n nv backward.................

10:46 PM

spent 3 days w him..n now he's back to e army..n e waiting begins again...tiring...cant imagine it lasting for 2 yrs...........

9:29 PM

finally......he's out...really glad to c him....

he says if he goes ocs..dere's a 3 weeks confinement.....wonder how wld i feel by dat time...perhaps alr used to not meeting..or not meeting as often......

2nd day of work...still doing super simple work..not yet gone into e real paper work..haha..but i'm dere to learn..so shall perservere..heex..

1:04 AM

-gRinx- 2 days to go~ i'm flying!!! gonna hit e ceiling soon!! haha..ok lame..hehe..shall go changi ferry terminal dere wait for him..so can c him asap...gRinx gRinx gRinx gRinx gRinx!!!!!!!!!!!!

hmm...still can get a job..quite pissed..haha..cuz i'm running outta cash..n dad's complaining dat i keep buying stuff..wateva~ haha..but once i get a job...................hiakz hiakz hiakz......ITS SHOPPING TIME~!!! actually not really la..need to save up oso..in case i can get into a uni..dat wld b my sch fees..heex...

so fed up lor...u noe nowadays u start receiving letters from e 3 uni promoting their sch rite? den received one from nanyang poly..reminds me dat i may not get into a uni...nvm...life sux wad rite? have to live on wateva shit happens.......

2 days..........hahahhahhahahahahhahhahaha.............

1:11 PM

heex..changed my blog~! give comments ya? heex...but not many ppl read my blog anw..change shuang one..haha..yepz yepz..was offered a job at chai chee..sho farrrrrrrrrr for me...but c how..mayb juz have to do w it..cant find any other jobs le..haha..yepz..saw jeanz today..still as 38..hahaha..oopx~ went out w winnie n jL to find jobs..haha..chit chat quite a bit at first..lazy find jobs le..haha..den evening dat time got tired le..so went home..haha..yepz..nth much happen..haha..cya~!
5 days to go........

10:38 PM

hmm..got fired today..dotx..2nd day of work only..so sad...sobx..e boss keep saying i cant understand simple stuff..keep saying e previous 2 part timers can understand v fast y i cannot...sobx...not i wan to b stupid de rite....anw..dear's dad was v kind..say will help me find other jobs..felt so taken care of...

everything seems to go wrong w/o him ard..n he msg me juz now!!! i'm so shocked!!! heex..but a pleasant surprise....

going to meet pri bez fren on sun..looking forward to seeing her again..finally sth dat cheers me up....

8:33 PM

went parkway..first day of work..great disappointment..went all e way down den he ask me go home cuz nth for me to do..n e hours lk diff from wat he told me during e intv..muz be dere everyday except sun..lk dat no time for dear when he books out..so yepz..gave it a miss..holding on to e office job only.....

its our 14th mth anni today..our first anni without being together..our first anni dat i'm missing him so much n realise how much i need him......i'll b strong...i hope..........

1:10 PM

went raffles place for work..den to gym in suntec..
2nd day w/o him..wondering how i'd survive on...its tough not to think of him..tears...

10:07 PM

...went tekong w him dis morning..wasted so much time dere..n din get to c him much..sad...miss him..coming back on e 19th..if only time really flies................

8:01 PM

tmr he going ns le...6th jan...2 weeks w/o him...lucky can use fone at nite...hopefully can...scared if i ask frenz out den dey say i got bf find bf .. no bf den find frenz..well...nvm..juz hope i'm not losing any frenz juz bcuz i got bf..juz thot he not ard can take e opportunity to meet up w frenz n catch up w e old times..but nvm..diff ppl think diff-ly...but do ask me out...anw...i'm gonna miss him................

11:33 PM

haha playing msn games w dear now..downloaded e msn ver 7..so cool..haha..argued again ytd..wat a way to end e yr...haha..went out for dinner today~ ate pizza hut..e cheese crust so nice..haha..bought a shirt for gawin..bird nest for dear's mum..brought e left over pizza home..brought home so many things..haha..reached home at ard 11..so shock to c my fren in e stn..she stay near me..den walk home together lor..haha..ooooo did i tell u he's in white long sleeves today? i bought for him de..ahahahhaa...jia~ *wInkx*

2:45 AM

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