Saturday, May 07, 2005
he's out for dis sat only..sun i'll b busy w tuition..quarrelled w him again..seems to b a routine..wonder wats wrong w me..but felt abit neglected..n i dunno y..but it seems lk..we can only share e happy times together..when i'm upset i cant turn to him..n i realised we cant sort things out or tok seriously..all e while its been lk dat..so we don solve problems..we sweep dem under e carpet..my fren said sth which struck me.."if cannot how to live together in future"..i may b thinking too far..but i guess its true..how far wld we go if we continue lk dis? hate my life..everything don seem to go in e rite way..every decision i made seems to b wrong..my frenz seems to b drifting away..i cant seem to find a topic to tok to dem abt..work wise..wateva job i get..its shit..my previous job is shit n so is my current job..dere's always sth wrong somewhere..my results sux..cant even get into a course i wan..parents nv seem to agree w wateva i do..n i mean NV..i cant think of anything dat dey agreed w me..n my parents cold war every 3 days..n e cold war last for lk few weeks? its freaking pissing me off..now dat i come to think of it..nth..really NTH seems to b going e rite way in my life..or is dat wat life is all abt? if dat is so..i probably wun like e idea of living on for another 40 or 50 more years..........
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