just got home from mj alumni dinner..kinda great to see our batch ppl again..see how ppl changed and look so different now..haha..quite a few from our cls went..cg saeed kj winnie lyn jamie angel jialin..haha..den went fishermen village after e dinner..
supposed to be a fun gathering..but i'm just not in my best mood..maybe its cuz of dad..lk kinda protective and keep wanting me to go home..haha..or maybe its cuz of sth else dats bothering me..but i just dunno wat..
somehow..i'm longer e old me anymore..no longer so chirpy..no longer so bubbly..so feel lk finding e old me back..so feel lk enjoying everyday of my life again..so enthu abt everything..
maybe somethings just cant be e same anymore....
haha..think i really am not in a v good mood.. o.O

12:28 AM

was basically slacking away dis few days..enjoy myself b4 sch starts..gotta start bidding for modules soon..haha..
sunday rot at home..den at nite chip came over at lk 11+ to gimme my xmas present..haha..
monday went town..met winnie to get movie tix from her..den went to watch narnia at ps..e show not bad sia..but e ending kinda too abrupt..shall wait for e next episode..heex..
tuesday went kbox w my slc group..kinda sianx..all not v enthu de..haha..
today went over jjc to watch soccer match today..den went home..den slack..
12 days to sch reopen..happy slacking!!
enjoy while u can!! -gRinx-

11:19 PM

try rate e complexity of my luv life..101 upon 100... -.-
we realised its better to be frenz again..
if we're fated to be tog..we'll be one day...

dis 2 yrs hasnt been easy..lotsa arguments lotsa tears..but hu can forget those happy moments dat we share..even e sadest moments are lk still so fresh in my mind..e super big argument dat we had on e beach..e times when we argued over e fone..e happy times when we went cycling tog..when we build sand castle tog..when we go snow city and played w slides..haha..all dis may sound silly..but dey're memories dat i'll hold on to forever...

i do luv u..but i muz admit..dat nite b4 comm ball..did break my heart..and changed quite alot of me..it feels so much diff after we patch..i really din mean to be cold..but i just don feel e same anymore..forgive me...i noe i broke ur heart again...

fate is playing a prank on me..but time will show it all..i may be damn stupid to give u up now..but i believe in fate...

if we're fated to be tog..we'll be one day...

1:09 AM

2nd time u're telling me u hate me..
haha..wat a joke...

9:17 PM

my art work =)

3:18 AM

oh well...it happened again..we kinda had some disagreements..over chip..
chip is so gonna be our main reason for arguments for lk at least e next few mth man..

lk just 2 days after we patch..we realised dat i no longer feel e same towards dis rs anymore..lk less enthu le..quoting from a fren: its lk i used to put in my 100% efforts..once i give a 60%..e other party is gonna get affected..and think i don care le.....is dat really true?.........
anw...we den decided dat i need to settle down my feelings first..b4 committing myself into e rs..hope its gonna work.....

e burfday surprise was really damn touching..esp he made dis collage for me..its lk i'm really damn touched la..cuz its lk e very very first time dat he made sth for me..really touched..but y is it dat to him..i don give a damn? isit cuz of e way i express myself?
but..honestly..after putting my whole heart and soul into e rs for e past 2 yrs..i'm getting abit tired le..and bored as well ba..so i guess dats y i seemed to be less enthu now dat we patch ba...
maybe i don make sense..but hope u'll understand wat i'm trying to say ba..

if i really don give a damn abt dis rs..i wldnt have asked for a patch rite...............

12:12 AM

16th dec..celebrated my burfday w mr chip..
he came over to fetch me..den we drove to clementi for spa and massage..haha..den went over to mt faber for sky dinning~ ie had dinner in e sky..ie had dinner in e cable car..din noe such thing existed..haha..den he brought me to e park..and blindfolded me..den used lightsticks and candles to form words..so coool~ haha..surprised me w lotsa gifts..flowers..e necklace i liked..e ear rings i've been trying to find but cant find..teddy bear..e exactly e same card dat he gave me which i lost it..he made jelly..

really will rmb dis day..thanx..

2:00 PM

erm..we patched...heex...

17th dec..
when e clock strikes 12..he was dere at my void deck..w cake and candles..wat a surprise~ heex...first time he surprises me..haha..
his commission ball just nice falls on my burfday..and he planned lotsa surprises..haha..first e emcee suddenly play us a video..was his whole platoon or sth singing a burfday song..den he said a few words..den e emcee got me up on stage and he gave me choc cake..den e whole room started singing..haha..den...........after awhile e emcee got me up again..he gave me my presents..haha..and we kena tekan on stage..haha..* bLush *
gifts for e day: flowers.. dkny watch dat i've been eyeing on.. and a collage he made himself..

somehow it feels weird..after 3 mth of trying to forget him..we patched..just feel diff from b4 ba..

1:54 PM

i thot i've made up my mind..and decided on my path to take...
but y does everythign seems so wrong..
i shdnt be feeling so lost after i made up my mind rite..
sth's holding me back...but i dunno wat...
i'm stuck here for damn long..and i don wish to drag anymore..it hurt us all...
but wat shd i do...
i'm feeling even more lost now den b4...
wat do i really wan..in my life..in my r/s...
pls grant me my burfday wish...
i wish i wish i wish...........

2:04 PM

haha just came back from slc (student leaders camp) was dere as a facilitator..its just a name for group leader..haha..wasnt easy man..to bond a group of student leaders..all e big shots..and i really wasnt enthu during e camp..din do a good job..but thanx to guoyong..my another facilitator..he helped me bond e group all e way man..thanx again!! =)

gonna be 17th soon...gotta make a decision soon...i kinda cant bear to hurt anyone..or to lose any 1 fren..esp when he did so much for me..wat shd i do.........

1:13 PM

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2:14 PM

can u imagine anyone crying almost everynite..for 2 mth..haha..
if only life can be simpler..less complicating....
either path i take..it wun be easy...
it wldnt be easy to forget someone who was once so close..someone u cared for and cared for u so much...
tried to convince myself and everyone ard me...dat i'm strong..
but apparently..i'm not..
i really am not...
i don have e courage to choose..
i don have e determination to move on..
i really don wish to lose anyone........

1:18 AM

reenactment...a pretty close fren of mine..experiencing similar situation as me in his luv life...can so understand how he's feeling now..but at least he has e courage to move on..i cant seem to let it go..did i say singlehood rockx?
don think anyone wld understand how i feel now ba..haha..
no matter wat..life still goes on..quoting from a fren.." don regret ur own choice..even if regret le..oso muz LL move on w it.."
haha..how true is dat....

1:17 PM

went kbox todayyyyyy...damn high can..sang for lk 4 hrs non-stop..hahaha..chose all e high notes songs..and we went screaming all e way..haha...was lk damn crazy la..think goign w fervo again next week..oh and my 301 dears..omg..i'm getting crazy over kbox..hahaha..oh yea went w chip n luke today..hahaha..cant imagine 1ger 2guys can get so high singing rite? hahaha..but yea we did...thanx for pei-ing me in e afternoon wor! =)

den after dat went over to cine to meet my cedar frenz..for harry potter again..hahaha..we had an agreement to watch every harry potter tog..haha..had some miscommunications here and dere w e organiser..kinda pissed for awhile..haha..e show aint DAT fantastic..a lil' disappointing la..haha..

saw dis gown dat i like in heerens..think quite cfm getting dat alr..for a ball dats coming up..(oh ya e ball falls on my burfday man)..but..79 buckx..haha..hu's sponsoring me? -GRINX-

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