the things i need to handle now is beyond what i've been through for the past 24 years..
sometimes i wonder how long is this turmoil gonna last or is it ever gonna end..
sometimes i feel avoidance and running away seemed to be a much better choice than to finding solutions..
i wanna run away..not stop carrying the amount of stress and burden like i am now..
mommy's going through a rough patch..
and i'm rushing to and fro the hospital to take care of her..
this crazy rush to find a rented flat to get mommy a whole new environment and never to come back here again..
guiding and teaching a new disciple which involves immense patience and high level of time management skills admist all the shit i'm juggling with now..
and i guess i've put aside my focus on sales for a long enough time..
the relationship i'm caught in now is as good as not having one..
its been a rollercoaster ride..
and i wonder if its worthwhile continuing the ride..
it could just be another worthless ride that make you feel terrible for nothing..
i need a guy who loves me more.
this 2 years hasnt been at all smooth..
last year was relationships and now its family..
i cant seem to be able to stay happy for long..
i wanna run away.
a gentle reminder to all:
have you been spending enough time with your family?
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