I've been blogging in my private blog more often than here.
Not a good sign.
Career has been ok so far this year.
At least till now.
But seeing my bitches and colleagues leaving for Athens affected me a hell lot.
I could only look forward and work towards Athens.
Rumors about what the double zees said about me affected me a great deal.
More than it should be.
I thought they were ridiculous initially.
Then, it created lotsa self doubts.
More so after the incident tonight.
Many of us are stuck in our comfort (danger) zone.
Be it in terms of career, or maintaining the relationships with your friends or family or partners.
Nothing much to elaborate on for career.
We've heard so much about stepping outta said zone and overcoming new challenges yada yada.
But human relationships, it's tacky eh?
No doubt we love to hang around people we can feel at ease with, and we can be ourselves in front of.
And the more we love them, the more we needa put in the effort to maintain these relationships.
Then, comes the irony.
To us selfish beings, being comfy and putting in effort don't quite come together.
I hope I'm making sense.
For matters of the heart, I became aware that I'm allowing myself to be in a vulnerable position again.
I needa pull out and protect myself before it's too late.
I am so incoherent.
Good night, world!
1:42 AM